Aku Pilih Derita....
I will have to admit..today is not a great day,,the only thing great that happens today is the birth of my dear friend Felicia Farida 27yrs ago...luv u dear!mmuuaaxxxx!..the rest is actually a gloomy day though i tried to hide it hard...but..i'm not that hypocrite whose saying happy when actually the feeling is sad...i'm a frank person..the only wrong i made is being too frank...being frank bout my true feeling...which is being sad and dissapointed...i wont hide the feeling coz Allah gave me this feeling for me to feel better after everything is okay....Alhamdulillah...for this sad feeling..makes me realize..theres no one but You Alone that always listen and watch over me when others didnt listen and look after me....I'm blessed to be Your servant.....
What did happened that makes me this sad?..IT'S A BROKEN PROMISE..i'm not going to tell what had happened...but i will tell the outcome for things that happened..i know theres maybe sumone feels hepi knowing i'm sad bcos it may give him/her a victory feeling...am i right?...but what did you win?what had you achieved?...i bet the feeling of winning is all wat u get...maybe its ur super, id and ego already been proved?and mayb u'll treasure it and boast it among ur frens..ur family..and for how long will u be proud of on what u had done?tell me......
I am sad...i am mad..i am so piss off with you until i cant see anything i had from you...everything that happened hurts me so much leaving a deep scar which u cant imagine...but thank you so much..for showing me who are you....though i nvr had had a high xpectation bout you..but i wanna believe what i think b4 were untrue..but rite now...i knew that..they're all true...you are you..thank you....i wont xpect anything from you anymore..
you might be reading this...and you might feel pissed...but i juz dun care anymore....we're even now....forgive me if what i said is true...but u know theres no one more frank bout you xcept me...people may praise n said gud things bout you...but i know u better than they do...thank you for keep reading....and if theres a little heart inside you...pls relieve n release me from anything i might owe u....and lastly..the song lyric below is for you....
DERITA MERINDU
Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan
Kau yang tak percaya… bagaimana nak bahagia
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada, ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah
Kaulah tanda tanya… kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya… kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan…
Aku masih terkilan
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